I Cheated My Vegetarian Diet

I know it's been a couple of days since my last post. I went camping for the weekend with my Partner. It was a lovely weekend! It was a great way to celebrate the last few weeks of summer before school starts again. Unfortunately, my esophagus couldn't relax for most of the trip, which made sleeping in a tent more difficult but I managed to get through it. Lately, acid and stomach bile have been working their way up my esophagus, making waking up very unpleasant. I believe stomach bile breath is worse than morning breath. I have no idea how to prevent. It feels like my food sits in my sphincter and gets partially dissolved and then comes back up again. 

I slightly contributed this problem to the fact that I started eating meat again for a couple of days. After my failed manometry, I was feeling pretty down about myself and about life in general. I truly felt there was nothing more that could be done for me or my esophagus because the doctors can't figure out why the nerves are breaking down again. So my immediate reaction was to eat something comforting and all I craved at the time were boneless Sticky Fingers from Wingers. I struggled with for a couple of hours until my Partner finally comforted me into doing it, because I felt like (and still feel like) I'm not going to know when my last meal is going to be so it might as well be whatever I want it to be. I am so unbelievably paranoid of the day I start regurgitating everything I eat. 

So we went to Wingers and I ate six Sticky Fingers. They were delicious. The next day I ate a turkey sandwich. The day after I ate Orange Chicken from Panda Express. I couldn't really feel a difference from eating meat and not eating meat until I started having intense heartburn.

I am happy to say I am back on my regular vegetarian diet with the occasional fish meal, but I am still experiencing bad motility and bile reaching the top part of my throat. 

Overall I have felt physically terrible and I am scared about everything happening with my esophagus but I am happy. 

I will never stop being happy.